Analysing ME!

Hi

Most of us dont analyse who and what we are!Probably we dont have that much time. I am trying to know my self better and my actions. Being a fucken Analyst and Programmer. I have got into a wrong habit of doing this in every aspect of life. Being Analyst is getting into my system. Now for instance I am sitting at 1 30 AM in the morning trying to analyse myself. Yeah I know my life sucks. Anyway here we go.

1.  I am talkative.(Which not many people know.) If you are one of my closest friends. I will call you frequently or be in touch. Would not mind chatting with you for hours.
2.  I cant stand anyone Ignoring me. (Sometime I do the same and I m not proud of it.)
3.  I like my calls being answered at all cost. I dont like being hung up.
4.  I dont like half hearted calls or chats. Some chatting or calling for name sake kind. If you really want to call do. I dont like sympathy calls and chats.
5.  Chats with lot of hmmm, Ok are irritating. People lying in chats can be caught easily. Dont say you are going to sleep, when you are go on being online for next 2 hours. If you are busy just simply say you are, say you are chatting with someone else.
6.  I dont like people trying to cut me off.
7.  I am a LEO! There is lot of pride in me. It might be negative thing to have. But thats what I am.
8.  If you think I am angry with you. Probably I am! Confirm that.
9.  If I am very angry I would cut myself from the world. I would not be reachable on Phone, Gmail, Orkut, Facebook. (Though I am there in them sometime in Invisible mode.)
10. I am not very good in wooing girls. Its not a piece of cake for me. I just cant do it. I cant joke around like some people who know this art. (I dont think I even read signal even if anyone has given me one. ha ha…)
11. I hate people who dont have any kind of addiction in their life. People must have something that they are addicted to it. Like for instance I am a movie freak! I love drinking. I love Music, pubs and discs.
12. I dont believe Guys who dont drink, they are bunch of Douchebag.
13. I never every try to take advantage of anyone or any situation. I have never done that. Will never do.(I know others do take advantage of me. Yes they do.)
14. I hate people who show or pretend that they care but actually they dont give a shit about you. They are just there with you because they are stuck with you.
15. If I do a mistake. I will sooner or later confess about it to you.
16. If I am guilty I will confess. This is something in me that I have noticed. I confess if I know I hurt someone.
17. Please Bare with me if there is misunderstanding between us.
18. Like everyone I like to keep control of everything around me. I dont like when things dont go the way I want them to.
19. When I use lot of sarcasm in my language! Yes I am pissed off because of You.
20. I am very possessive about things around me. My Friends, My Sketches, My things.( There is lot of ‘MY’here. Typical Leo Behaviour.)
21. I always feel I am IMPORTANT n Famous! Which I think I am.
22. I am not a bad person. I know this for sure. ( I know even Hitler thought the same about him. But jokes apart yes I am good Person.)
23. I cant show off. I dont wear cool glasses. Cool dresses. (Though I know if do dress up well. It would be good.)
24. I dont like people lying. Dont like them.(Which I think is common with everyone.)
25. If I do anything stupid. Say it on my face. I would appreciate that.
26. Facebook says LOT about me.(Joker picture is to show is freaken psychotic right now.)
27. I did hurt some people in my life and I’m embarrassed about it.
28. Promise is Promise. I dont break one. I try to keep them up.
29. Friends and Family mean a lot to me. More than you can think of.
30. If I am a douchebag or an idiot It’s your responsibility to correct me.

Friend You are welcome to give your comments. I would not mind. If they are true and I missed it. It will go in my Analysing list.(Will Add more to this.)

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Slap of Irony

Hi

I don’t know why I start my blog with an apology these days. Anyway I am going to do it again. I am sorry that I keep disappearing from the Blog world. There are no specific reasons for that. Only one reason that I can think of is that I am lazy. Anyway I am back for sometime now.

To be frank I am not in right state of mind. (Actually most of the time when I am not in right state of mind, I write blogs. All the sad once.). This time too I am confused. Its like I don’t know myself. There is strange feeling inside. Violent. Anger. Hate. Jealous. Its like I am going psychotic every day. The Main reason being attachments.  I don’t understand why do I even need it. Do I really? Why cant we have just some great friends that is it. Bond free. Why do you need someone to be very close to you? Love You. Know you inside out. I wish god takes out attachments from me. After which let me not have any feelings left in me. And be Like  a stone. Not to feeling anything or anyone. Not to feel loved or Hated.  Just do what I am suppose to do and let this life pass by. God please grant me this wish. (Yeah I do want little attachment with my Parents. Other than that I don’t need anything.) Bring me closer to you, Oh God. Let me just sing and dance praising you. I want to be a child who does not care of anything around the world. Who knows no love no hate.

This what was going on in my mind all day long. I wanted to hate everyone around me. It’s not that life has been harsh on me this particular day only. It has been like this long since I can remember. May be that is why I am more inclined to parents,religion and country. Cause I feel only they know how much I love them. Half of the people around me don’t really get me. I am sure about it. People just fool around and leave. This day I felt only I had all the problems in life. I don’t have a penny in my bank. I cant help my dad with work. I am away from home. I don’t have a someone to care n love. At work even after giving my best I don’t think people reorganize it.  My life has Sucks written all over it. When my mind was surrounded with all these thoughts. I get two mails. One was from my youngest sister at home. It was Rakhi. Though it reached me late. It reached me at the right time. God said in his own style “Someone Loves You”. Another mail was from World Vision it was from a girl I had been sponsoring for a year now. It had her snap and what she does and stuff. Her father is Labour and Mother is housewife. She has a brother too. Suddenly I realized. I am so much more lucky and blessed to have a loving parents and good Job. The point is I am so well off and doing good. I dont think I should cry over something I could not get. I should see her life and draw inspiration from it. Now I feel so proud that I am sponsoring a girl for her education. I pray she does great in her life.

Now I feel better. Though I am not pumped up with confidence and positiveness. I feel a lot better.

Thank God. Wahe Guru Ji Ka Khalsa. Wahe Guru Ji De Fathe.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Fading Happiness

Hi

There is always a time in life when you have all the reason to be happy but you are still unstatisfied. There is a strange kind of emptiness in your heart. A void. As if you are missing something. I am very much in same state of mind.

Shakespeare said world is a Stage and we all actors. I disagree with him. I think life is like a master and we are its spoiled Bitches. There are times when life treats us so well and all we do is despise it. And when it starts treating us like a bitch we run behind it. I know what I am writing might sound lot like crap. But if you are in Shitty side of life all you can get is the stink.

Coming back to my point which is why my topic is about “Fading Happiness”. Lately everything in my life is going wrong. I just lost one of my best friends (Lost in the sense we dont talk any more). My entire collection of movies, Songs, Drawing picture Collection and Data was lost when I tried to install new OS!

The only happiness left in my life right now, is My Nephew. He recently started going to school. Daily calling my sister and listening to what my nephew does daily in school is all the fun I have. I love that part. Then there is my second life where I get drunk go out to party with friends. I love it when Alcohol runs in my veins and when the sound of music so loud that it hits your heart with every beat.  But when I am out of this noise. I again start thinking of the friend that I lost.

It’s really unfair I think. I agree I lost my friend due to my stupidity. Let me be even more clear here. I tried to ignore my friend for sometime because I felt I was not getting enough attention and my messages were not being replied. Come who does not get angry like this? And after this when I came over my anger and started to talk to her. Now she does not talk. It was then I realized “Oh Shit, Did I screw up again?”‘ It was too late by then. It was like I am crying over the spilled milk. Now all I can do is sing Last Kiss from Perl Jam with a bottle of Rum by my side. People say drink does not help and leads to Alcoholism. I totally disagree It is actually great!

Thinking about this failed friendship its hard. I dont like it when things end like this. But what are we suppose to do when they do? Why do people dont come over it for better good? I dont blame anyone. My point is if our friendship does not stand up to this small test. May be we were not close enough. Though we could have been. It really hurts when you see a great friend in someone and then you loose them all of sudden. Dont we deserve second chance ? Why do fail to talk things through. Most of failed relationships are not due to misunderstanding. It is cause we fail to over come and talk this misunderstanding through.

Sometime I wonder is this what we call friendship is ? When One person does something wrong the other just leave you and go? Why did my friend not catch my ears and say “Stop showing off. And reply.” The more I think about this more I become impatient and angry. Angry that It ended because of me. Angry that even after me trying I could not make it happen. Angry that it did not work out well. Angry that I lost a friend.

I have nothing else to say. The more I think about this more I feel sad. I think I should stick to my movie that I am watching.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Argument with A Bengali

Hi

First before I start let make this clear. I do have some good Bengali Friends this article is not intent to hurt them. They are my friends first. For others I dont care! Now Take this.

Everyone loves their “Home town”. Like, I love punjab even though I have never stayed their long enough but still I love the place. People there are gracious, loving, hospitality is amazing (No other state can claim that I think.), we love food, love to party, can take a lot of drinks, somethings are genetically embedded in our DNA. But somethings I am not proud of like Female Infanticide and being biased at times.

Now let me come to my point there are something we can be proud of somethings we cant. And this Bengali that I met had got it all wrong.

Argument started something like this. I was talking to 2 other guys in the train, generally about How Bengal has not progressed at all in all these years. I telling them what my Dad’s Friend happen to say me that Bengal was No. 1 State because we can get food for Rs.10 even now! Now this Bengali heard me saying that. He got totally wild and started saying things which were no were related to topic.

My Argument was people where happy the way they are. They did not want to progress in their life. They were happy that they got food for Rs.10. My thinking is If today I have a shirt worth Rs.500 tomorrow I have to earn enough that I can buy a shirt worth Rs.1000. I would constantly want to improve my life. But people there have lost that will I think. I have been out of bengal from past 15years! Still when ever I go back to my hometown (Kharagpur) there is nothing there to do. Nothing at all. After Ages we got our first Shopping Mall. This was my part and where the argument started.

This is what that Bengali had to say.

1. Bengal is No.1 State in India. (Yeah! Right…)

2. World Trade Centre was Designed by Bengali (I dont know how that Helps bengal to progress.)

3. We dont kick people like you out of our state. Like they do in Maharashtra. (I dont even know. Why this point came and what it has got to do anything with the progress of Bengal. Infact they should be happy that we work!)

4. If we dont get food for Rs.10 what will poor people eat. (That Uncle I am talking about earns like in 7 figures. He is still not ready to shed something from his pocket. Plus this was just a metaphoric statement. What I ment was they dont want to improve.)

5. Bengal is No.1 state in Agriculture! (He forgot Punjab and Harayana)

6. People like us “Earn” from bengal and go to Punjab (This was his reasoning why Punjab is prospering.)

7. There is lot of Industrialization in Bengal. There are many companies coming to Bengal after Nano left. (This is the Joke of Century. I know 4 companies that Immediately pulled out after this. Jindal Cements, Jindal Steel, TCS, and Wipro)

8. Bengal is Improving more than Gujarat! (Another Joke that I laughed like hell)

9. Bengal Government is the Best.

10. Ganguly was thrown out of the team cause he was Bengali.

11. There is no Bengal Regiment in Army because everyone is afraid that Bengal might become most powerful state!!! (May be there is no Bengal Regiment cause they are Lazy!)

The last Argument really Blew me out. I was speech less and thought its waste to argue with this man. After that I took all the Crap he have to give about Bengal. Anyway Hope you enjoyed his Argument.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Coming Soon

Hi

Though I dont have any fan following for my blogs. And I am sure not many missed me either. I would love to say the rest “I am back.” There has been lot of things that has been going on in my mind for some time now. There are many new topics and thoughts that I would love to share with you.

Before I forget them. I would like to document them.(What can I do being in IT industry for 3 years now even I started using Techie terms like Documentation, in my day to day life. ) Here are the titles of some of the blogs that you all can expect from my blog.

You see It’s something like Trailer. So that I am able to connect to my audience. You are free to comment and let me know which Title to be published sooner than later.

Titles

1. They like it, The Other Way – ( Its about Article 377)

2. Kashmir Issue : A Serious Thought – (Its about India’s No 1 problem at present. State that has lost itself in battle of freedom)

3. Fading Happiness – (Basically State of My Life right now.)

4. Rediscovering the Cricketer in Me – ( Its about CCL . Saturday Morning Cricket.)

5. Argument with A Bengali – (Its about Bengali I met in Train.Very Interesting.)

6. Hardeep Analysis – Selfish Dhoni – (Its about my Brother’s and My research on Dhoni.)

7. Not Guilty – (Its about Ajmal Kasab. Who is making fool out of us.)

8. We, Sikhs – (Its about my faith,my believe,my religion!)

Though right now I can think of only so many topics, would update this list soon.

Hope you would love them.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

We, The Gori Chamdi Wale

Hi

This blog is dedicated to people like me. i.e. People with fair Skin(Or so called Gori Chamdi, Not Foreigners but basically North Indian), Shy and Single. Or  the SSS Gang. I am not racist! My friend list range from people from different states, countries and continents.

People have habit of assuming things. By just knowing their little background. Like All South Indians are Madrasies. Or all Malwadis are kanjus! Same like this I have noticed people assuming that if you are fair and say little handsome (No I am not Bragging about me! ) You have girl friend. This does not go for me alone. I know some more people in same criteria. Now tell me what do we do ? Its even worst for girls I think. But really what are to do in this condition? Hang a board from our neck what says “SINGLE READ TO MINGLE” ?

So what I come here to say is if you see us(I mean SSS gang.). Please don’t assume things come to us. Talk to us. Once you take the first step. Its quite easy for us. Its like work half done.

In India, there is big problem with the color thing. When ever I see Fair and Lovely Ads. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. What do they think they are saying to the common public that’s watching the Ad? Do they want to say only if you are fair you will be successful ? I dont know why Government even allows such ads. Do they know how much insecurity it brings in people’s mind? It really sad. Why should you buy Fairness Cream? I dont think anyone need one. You should be happy they way you are. And if Fair and Lovely Cream was not enough. They have brought another product in market. Called Fair and Handsome! Bull Shit. And to advertise it our so called great SRK comes. This is just my thought. I know most of the people have noticed this. (I wanted to add this paragraph. It had been in my mind for quite sometime.)

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Untitled

Hi

Untitled. There are so many incidents in life that just happen in flash of second and are gone. Relations that last those milli seconds. I love it. These small small day to day incident just enlighten your day. And some time last longer than you expect them to last. I call them Untitled as I think these incidents were created by god to just keep us Happy and Guessing. They tell you that the love of your life is just a cornor away.

Now Let me not bore you with my psyhological shit. And get on to incidents.

One such Incident I already wrote about it. It is called Bulls Eye : The Shooting Competation . One of the most memorable incidents in my life. Though it was more than a day. It lasted a decade and more.

Similaryly once While catching a bus. My eye caught an attention when I saw a buddhist monk and his daughter walking by. She was beautiful. She did not notice me immedietly but after crossing me and going say 15 steps ahead she turns and gives a Smile. It’s not that she was seeing something else and smiling. No. She looked straight to my eyes. Smiled and went. I kept waiting for her to turn again she did not until she got into a bus. Kept her palm on last seat window as if telling me Good Bye. Damm… I was flattered. Oh What a memory. This happened in Coonoor Bus Stand when I was in School.(I dont remember the Class. )

Next incident is not about another beautiful girl or Some kind of love story exactly but It is quite clear in my mind. For some reason I have this incident in my head. Every Saturday I have my Breakfast in road side shop where they make Dosa. That day I was feeling home sick and bad about something I dont remember. I wanted to go home and was just angry at everything around me. While having Dosa a small girl comes to me and says “Bhaiya, Bhaiya”. I normally dont pay attention to beggers. I did not listen to her first then suddenly thought of my sister came. I called the girl gave her a dosa. It felt great. I was so happy after that Incident. I felt so proud. The happiness in the small girl’s eye still makes me happy.

Then there was Shopping Girls incident. It was quite funny. I was going to ATM on they way there is a show room of “United Colors of Benetton”. When I looked into the show room I saw there were two girls shopping. Checking out coths that were kept. I think they found what they wanted and were just showing each other their dresses. There was a small space beside the show puppets(I dont know what they are called. The statues that are dressed and kept for show.) These girls stood there and started giving poses. When I saw this I smiled at them. And they bursted into laughter. And so did I. It was one of the most funniest moment that just happened. Just like that out of thin Air.

There are many such Incidents. They cannot be Titled as something in Particular. But makes you smile when you think about them. These where some of mine. Will keep posting some more if I remember.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Hardeep Analysis

Hi

You must be wondering what is this about and who is this Hardeep? Hardeep Singh Virdi is my brother. An Amazing person and Cricketer. His repeated analysis on Team, Players and Matches were so Accurate that I had to keep a note of them. So the main topic We would be discussing  here is Cricket. It might be Team, Players, Matches, Series.

So Who is Hardeep and Why his Analysis?

Hardeep is one of the most amazing Cricketers that I have seen in my life. He is not a road side or so called gully Cricketer. He has had his share of lime light and touch of fame. He played for his school in many Inter-School Competitions. He is one of the Greats in his school. Who brought in lot of Cups. His confidence in facing any bowlers and the way he break down opposition strategies are simply amazing. I have never seen someone who is able to practically read the Game. When ever we watch cricket he knows what will be the reaction and decisions taken by some of the players. It’s just amazing to see that. I would have loved to see him in international arena playing for India. But just like many other great players in our country he is lost in chain of Society Circles.

So what we are going to do here is , We are going to post series of “Hardeep Analysis” on various Teams, Players, Matches Etc. Enjoy.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

A-Z of My Life

Hi

Recently I have read many blogs which had all kinds of Tags on them. I dont know if this has been done by someone. I wanted to take a note what  came to my mind when I thought of alphabet A-Z. These are the first thoughts that came to my mind when I thought of that letter. Since I have my glass of Rum with me. I am not lying.

A – Ammi Jaan

B – Blog

C – C Programming

D – Daddy

E – Edit Plus

F – Fuck you

G – Google

H – Hardeep

I – I

J – Jithuuuuu

K – Kiss

L – Loooovee

M – Hmmm …

N – Nitu

O – Old Monk

P – Papa (My First Chacha ji)

Q – Queen

R – Rum

S – Sat Naam

T – Tata Bearing

U – U

V – Vision

W – Wahe Guru

X – Xerox

Y – Yesterday

Z – Zohombi

Some of the words may be silly but that is how it is ! Hope you liked it.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

The Lost Team Pakistan

Hi,

Yesterday, I was watching match between Pakistan and England. England was amazing. Never for a minute they looked down because the lost their last match with the Netherlands. Their approach towards the game was simple aggressive cricket. The way Kevin Pieterson played was amazing. And he got very good company from Luke Wright too. Pakistan just had glims of spark in them every now and then. 

This is not the Team Pakistan that I know. The Pakistan team that I knew was aggressive. They never where great batsmen. (Other than Saheed Anwar. And little glims of Afarid’s Brillinace. Every now and then.) But man they had bowlers. They generated Pace machines like no other country. A Team that gave Cricket reverse swing. The Team that fought it through gave hard time to the opposition. If not every country atleast India. But seeing them just let go the warm up match. That was sad. They did not have the X Factor that normally we see in Pakistani Team.  I am not a Pakistani Supporter. I am an Indian. I want my team to win. But I enjoy the rivary India and Pakistan had on the field. That tough cricket they played on the field. Damn it was good to see that. What I want is a Final where India beat Pakistan. But I dont see that spark in pakistan team. I dont think they will make it to the super 8 itself. Pakistan team is lost in some other world. They should realize their strength. And theirs is Bowling. I think Bangladesh gave a better fight than Pakistan gave against India or England. Its high time they pull up their socks. Or they will say bye bye to the cup pretty soon.

I wanted to write this not  because I am Pakistan cricket supporter. I love my country and will aways support India. But the way Pakistan play cricket these days shows the mirror Image of whats going on in their country. I think there should be lot more determined than any other team in the competation. I am sure a win will help many people back home for them.  Yesterday, The interview given by Younis Khan was even more sad. Singling out your players in you team sends a wrong signal to the supporters. No matter how bad you do we must never single out any player and say he did not play well. You loose as a team You win as a team. Younis Khan should look up to players and Captain like Dhoni. And the way he projects himself and his team.

There is lot of work that Pakistan needs to do if they want to be in the tournoment. 

 

Jagdeep Singh Virdi