Hi

A bad patch!

Life always have a bad patch along with the good side of it. My life is in similar such mode right now. There is increasing frustation in me. Anger. Hate. All the negative thoughts that I had never witnessed in me are all coming out at same time. There is increasing feeling that I m not doing enought with my life. Its like I m wasting this life.

I love the weekends. When I m lost between Friends, Music and Alcohol. But when the clock start coming near to Monday. I grow angry as-if you are taking away a toy from a child’s hand. I hate the feeling of Monday. Seeing those faces on whom I feel like throwing brick on. All being deplomatic in everything they do. Every thing about office sometime seem Fake to me. Its not that I dont have friends there. I do. I have made some amazing friends there. But you see the propotion is too small. I m just comfortable to be with people whom I know. The work I know. I know sometime its wrong. But thats the way I am made.

I dont like it when people who are as useless as you are start Judging you. Or some stupid newbe try to act smart front of you. I know what I am good at and what I am not. If people question at my work which I know then I would not be annoyed. But its when you do work that you dont know much. And people come and question you. “You dont even know this? ” Or “I dont know what you have been doing all this years.” These are the stuff that makes you angry. I know if these same people come to my domain and do worst at it. None of the people at our place would be so rude at you. Anyway My Freedom day is coming soon. I will be back where I actually belong!

 

Jagdeep Singh Virdi