Slap of Irony

Hi

I don’t know why I start my blog with an apology these days. Anyway I am going to do it again. I am sorry that I keep disappearing from the Blog world. There are no specific reasons for that. Only one reason that I can think of is that I am lazy. Anyway I am back for sometime now.

To be frank I am not in right state of mind. (Actually most of the time when I am not in right state of mind, I write blogs. All the sad once.). This time too I am confused. Its like I don’t know myself. There is strange feeling inside. Violent. Anger. Hate. Jealous. Its like I am going psychotic every day. The Main reason being attachments.  I don’t understand why do I even need it. Do I really? Why cant we have just some great friends that is it. Bond free. Why do you need someone to be very close to you? Love You. Know you inside out. I wish god takes out attachments from me. After which let me not have any feelings left in me. And be Like  a stone. Not to feeling anything or anyone. Not to feel loved or Hated.  Just do what I am suppose to do and let this life pass by. God please grant me this wish. (Yeah I do want little attachment with my Parents. Other than that I don’t need anything.) Bring me closer to you, Oh God. Let me just sing and dance praising you. I want to be a child who does not care of anything around the world. Who knows no love no hate.

This what was going on in my mind all day long. I wanted to hate everyone around me. It’s not that life has been harsh on me this particular day only. It has been like this long since I can remember. May be that is why I am more inclined to parents,religion and country. Cause I feel only they know how much I love them. Half of the people around me don’t really get me. I am sure about it. People just fool around and leave. This day I felt only I had all the problems in life. I don’t have a penny in my bank. I cant help my dad with work. I am away from home. I don’t have a someone to care n love. At work even after giving my best I don’t think people reorganize it.  My life has Sucks written all over it. When my mind was surrounded with all these thoughts. I get two mails. One was from my youngest sister at home. It was Rakhi. Though it reached me late. It reached me at the right time. God said in his own style “Someone Loves You”. Another mail was from World Vision it was from a girl I had been sponsoring for a year now. It had her snap and what she does and stuff. Her father is Labour and Mother is housewife. She has a brother too. Suddenly I realized. I am so much more lucky and blessed to have a loving parents and good Job. The point is I am so well off and doing good. I dont think I should cry over something I could not get. I should see her life and draw inspiration from it. Now I feel so proud that I am sponsoring a girl for her education. I pray she does great in her life.

Now I feel better. Though I am not pumped up with confidence and positiveness. I feel a lot better.

Thank God. Wahe Guru Ji Ka Khalsa. Wahe Guru Ji De Fathe.

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

The Useless Life

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A bad patch!

Life always have a bad patch along with the good side of it. My life is in similar such mode right now. There is increasing frustation in me. Anger. Hate. All the negative thoughts that I had never witnessed in me are all coming out at same time. There is increasing feeling that I m not doing enought with my life. Its like I m wasting this life.

I love the weekends. When I m lost between Friends, Music and Alcohol. But when the clock start coming near to Monday. I grow angry as-if you are taking away a toy from a child’s hand. I hate the feeling of Monday. Seeing those faces on whom I feel like throwing brick on. All being deplomatic in everything they do. Every thing about office sometime seem Fake to me. Its not that I dont have friends there. I do. I have made some amazing friends there. But you see the propotion is too small. I m just comfortable to be with people whom I know. The work I know. I know sometime its wrong. But thats the way I am made.

I dont like it when people who are as useless as you are start Judging you. Or some stupid newbe try to act smart front of you. I know what I am good at and what I am not. If people question at my work which I know then I would not be annoyed. But its when you do work that you dont know much. And people come and question you. “You dont even know this? ” Or “I dont know what you have been doing all this years.” These are the stuff that makes you angry. I know if these same people come to my domain and do worst at it. None of the people at our place would be so rude at you. Anyway My Freedom day is coming soon. I will be back where I actually belong!

 

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

LOVE for Dummies

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In this mordern times having someone by your side becomes so important that they are almost a basic necessity in society. Even though the topic suggest that I would be giving some tips on this topic. I would not be giving. I want your help in going to the next step of Relationship!

Before I would like to start with my contitions and pleading for help let me tell you the reason behind this situation we have today. With youngsters concentrating more on having Girl Friends than actually concentrating in their class. People join same school so that they could be with their GF. They Change College so that they could be with their GF. They Change Branches so that they could be with their GF. You see stigma of not having one makes us sick! I am stuck with the same Virus so called LOVE! Virus that has been spreading like a wild fire in the forest. I would blame SRK (Shahrukh Khan) , Karan Johar, Yash Raj. For what has happened to our society. Not to forget numerious Social Networking site. All they do is crupt young minds. These are the main people who has spread this virus among the present youth. This virus has so strongly effected the basic DNA of our system that. The reasoning for every this has been some where or the other related to GF!

Anyway, Even I am searching for my cure. So in this persuit I have been stuck in one situation where I mess up each and every F*&%ên time.

Let me start with – You like someone. You go to them you even start talking to them. They talk to you. Even laugh for what you have to say. Everything is good. Now what next? I dont understand what I should do next? What is the next step ? Coffee ? Movie ? What? How do I know its not too late or too soon for Coffee or Movie ? There is another problem here. With so much failures in life One tend to become little impatient. Which I hope we all become after sometime. This topic will not be over until I get to know what to do next. And dont forget to put the Sardar criteria while you come up with a solution!

Hmmm … Someone happen to ask me why I need a GF why is it so important? To start with No I dont think its that Important. But sometime you want to talk to someone. Someone close. Or Sometime you find someone you think is perfect for you. Until you try how would you know they are perfect or not ? I happen to see someone who is good. So what not see where it goes ?

Help this Dummy! To Be successfull.

 

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Other Side of Coin

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Most people know me as Calm, Quite and Smiling Guy. Which even I think I am! Normally. I dont get angry very soon. I keep quite. Dont talk much. In my own world.

But lately I realized things change when I enter Volley Ball Court.Before this, Let me tell you about my affair with Volley Ball Court. When in School we played Volley Ball every single day. We simply loved to get on the ground and play our hearts out. Everyday we played bet games. We Won We Lost. Volley Ball excites me even now. I love to see games see how they play, try to see weak points of other teams. See potential of good players. I can read the game. Its not like this when I watch Cricket. I love watching sometime even playing. But I am not able to think in Cricketing terms. But Volley Ball I think speak and walk with it.

Recently I had been playing Tournament at our Office. I realized that when I play Volley ball. I tend to become someone else. Or may be the real me. I am very aggressive in the game. I cant take people cheating in Game. I dont like loosing. I like things to go my way. I like to risk for getting one point for my team. I like people play the game perfectly. Not fool around. I shout a lot while playing game. Continuously encourage my team mates. Like people play as a team rather than show their individual skills. Its totally different. I am more confident in that court than I am anywhere. I am all pumped up in confidence. When I am in the court I know who I am and I dont live under anyone shadow. It feels like I am in Command.

May be its because I love the game or know the game or simply the confidence I gained by the experience.

There are two sides to all of us. I just found the other side of me. Just like the Coin has two side. I found I had two sides of me too.

 

Jagdeep Singh Virdi

Flying Plane

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Today, It was quite relaxed and refreshing day for me. I had never felt like this for quite sometime now. Yesterday, We made everything ready for release that we had to make today.(We – My Lead and Myself) The work was complex but we managed to complete it before time(Which I am sure does not happen quite often). . Today all we had to do is come to office and make the releases. That is what we did exactly. Then the whole day relaxing. Communicating with the lost world. 

Other than that I made a Plane today! Paper Plane. I don’t know what made me do so. It was fun! Super Fun. It brought all my childhood memories. How when I was in School we used to make planes. Go to our Class and throw them one by one. (Our class was on 2nd Floor). Again go down pick them up. Again throw them. There were competitions. Best plane (On Looks), Longest distance travelling going plane, Longest time on Air Plane and what not!!! ha ha ha…

But when I tried testing the plane on my way back from Office Bus to Room. People were seeing me strangly as if I had committed some sin. Some with smile on their face. I dont know whether they were smiling at me seeing the plane in my hand or just smiling to see I am still in touch with my childhood. 

And When I tested it God Damn that plane could fly. It was the most beautiful exterience. I had fun playing with it for sometime until it landed on someone’s home! . 

It felt great to be child again. I always believe no matter how old you become there is always a little child in all of us thats waiting to come out. Today was the day when child in me came out. And I had a great Day!

 

Jagdeep Singh Virdi